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[fionnuisce]

[Even ten years and tireless work later, Waver still didn't have any noteworthy power as a mage. Even all of his students vastly outclassed him in that regard, a secret he held as close to his chest as one possibly could. What he did have was intellect in the mad recklessness that was his mind, and the ability to utilize his limited abilities alongside those who could do what he could not.]

[Rather than lose himself to a persona of ruthless steel, he could entrust that humanity to someone who could guard it. He could support and guide one immeasurably stronger than him in turn, and in doing so they could both be whatever was needed to protect others.]

[That was why losing him had hurt so badly. Why it felt like the other half of his heart and soul had been torn out and left hollow.]

Diarmuid, I-...

[He quickly bit his tongue against something better left unsaid. It was highly likely that Saber had been right and he had already known as Lancer. Diarmuid would know himself well enough to recognize as much, surely.]

[Even so, he was still afraid to speak the words.]

...

[twofoldfury]

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[There was something there. On the edge of his tongue, in the depths of his heart blooming, blossoming. Threatening to break free from the broken path that was every rejection he gave ending at the one he could not, lest everything he fought for fall apart.

And for all he failed, for all he hurt Waver he had less right than ever to let that petal free. The bramble weaved path would be the one he walked as he kept Waver safe.

This way was...]

You should try to get some rest again. I cannot fend off the demons in your dreams, but I will be here to remind you they're in the past if they disrupt your sleep.

[fionnuisce]

...you should...try to get some sleep yourself.

[He couldn't do it. Even knowing what Saber had said, he couldn't take that risk knowing it might destroy everything. If it came down to breaking his own heart or breaking Diarmuid's, then...well, that wasn't even really a choice at all, was it?]

[...Even so, that didn't stop Waver from holding tightly like he feared the knight could still vanish into nothing under his hands again.]

You're really going to stay here?

[twofoldfury]

[Diarmuid was happy to break his own heart. Call it penance to tread this path of pain, as long as Waver was alive.

Waver wasn't even wrong, Diarmuid had also been up and out late and he seemed to require sleep again since coming back to life here. He gave the best, most assuring smile he could muster behind the deep sadness in his heart.]

I'm not going anywhere.

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...alright. You win.

[He was, admittedly, exhausted. The maddening solitude of an empty apartment was gone when it was less empty, and it was remarkable how many things he simply couldn't find the point in worrying about with Diarmuid nearby.]

[As long as he was alive, as long as he was happy, as long as they were together--that was enough. He could keep his silence knowing that was the case, or at least that was what Waver told himself.]