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[fionnuisce]

'You've reached Lord El-Melloi II. Leave a message and I'll get back to you.'

[network username: silverrose]

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[fionnuisce]

I'm his Master, that's just sort of something he would do. I don't know what point you're trying to make here.

[drewthetower]

The point I'm trying to make here is I think it either is or has a--wait a second. When did you say you first met him?

[fionnuisce]

What--I was nineteen, what does that have to do with it?

[drewthetower]

You've been pining for ten years, haven't you?

[fionnuisce]

I--what? I'm not--I haven't been pining, what the fuck is wrong with you?

[drewthetower]

Okay then, when did you fall in love with the guy? When he got here? He only got here a couple of days ago.

[fionnuisce]

I am not answering that question.

[drewthetower]

Because I was right the first fucking time. And you have a chance to at least tell him, and you're not going to because of some crazy bitch ass curse from when he was alive? Did you miss the part where you're not a woman?

[fionnuisce]

Yeah, no shit or else we would have had a whole lot of other problems. It's not about whether I'm a woman or not, it's...

...I just can't. I can't say it and risk hurting him when he trusts me as much as he does.

[drewthetower]

Why would you think it'd hurt him? Because of, again, some crazy ass bullshit from when he was alive? That had nothing to do with you?

[fionnuisce]

This isn't about whether it has anything to do with me. My feelings don't factor into this when we're talking about millenia-old trauma hard-coded into everything he is as a person. He still thinks everything that happened back then was his own fault, who the fuck am I to act like I have any right to love him when stupid and misguided love was what started this whole thing?

[drewthetower]

Why do you think you need the "right" to love anyone, Waver?

[fionnuisce]

...

[He either didn't have an answer for that, or elected not to voice it.]

[drewthetower]

[Softly:]

Obviously you're scared to tell him--which I get, ask me how long I was stupid over Alex before I said something--but seriously, Waver, you should say something. Maybe not right now, but soon. Hell, if you want supernatural assurance, I've got my cards.

[fionnuisce]

...August, I appreciate what you're doing. I really do mean that. I just...don't know that I can.

[drewthetower]

I think you could. [Eventually] But I'll drop it for now.

[fionnuisce]

You sound just like my sister. [sheesh]

Yes, okay, I'm in love with him. And I didn't have any intention of blowing up a perfectly good partnership by acting like that matters.

[drewthetower]

Well, it does matter. [Your feelings matter you dolt.] But I get it.

[fionnuisce]

[SIGH]

What a fucking disaster.

[drewthetower]

[Shoulderclap.]

At least you're self-aware. But we're all disasters here so you're in good company,

[fionnuisce]

Oh, I'm well aware of that.