Who knows, someday things might get bad enough that it does come to that. Until then...yeah, you're right. I guess I just...

[He trailed off with a tired laugh, reaching for the glass and taking a drink.]

...I've been doing everything on my own for too damn long. Threw aside my own name to accomplish what I needed to do as a mage instead of a human. I've been really stupid to keep trying to live like that in a place this removed from what I know as reality. So...maybe this whole mess is just for the better, even if it might end up dangerous for me later.